“It’s easy to imagine letting go when we forget that choices are luxuries, allowing us to maintain our illusion of control. But until those choices are plucked from our hands; someone dies, someone leaves, something breaks, we are only playing at surrender.”
Rhythm In Life 
Yes, true surrender is hard. I am glad to see you reappear in my WordPress feed. Haven’t seen you in a long time.
I believe so; true surrender is and can be hard!
So happy to see you here myself; yes it’s been a while.
Hope all is well with the kids.