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Cancer journey; possible organ transplant recipient

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2011 right before my liver resection that would get rid of the right lobe of my liver which was all cancerous, I was put on a liver transplant list. Another possibility that we discussed was giving me part of husband’s liver. My thoughts amidst this;

  • This was going to be a very painful journey
  • It would be exhausting
  • I was scared
  • There were high possibilities of losing this battle of this life
  • I was terrified at the possibility of receiving someone’s liver. This meant someone had to lose a life for me to receive a liver.
  • I felt extremely vulnerable and desperate

That season of my life was full of many questions. Despite the fact that I never doubted God’s love for me, Once again there I was with my little faith asking yet again… “Why me Lord?” How was I supposed to give thanks to in this situation? But again, how could I doubt God’s hand in that moment knowing very well that He knows me and all my days are under His Control?

I physically hurt and I was spiritually struggling to grasp His truth. After all He is my shepherd, my guide, my hiding place, my comforter, my heavenly Father. He loves me and would never seek out to harm me. And I honestly had no choice but to trust whatever the outcome was.

I marveled once again at the kind of faith Abraham and Sarah had when they were told of the children that would come forth by Sarah’s womb at a very old age. Something physically impossible but yet they believed. I had to believe, I needed to trust in God’s grace who knows my heart and understood my fears perfectly.

“By your Grace my Savior, give me unshakable faith even when I do not clearly understand where I am heading. Help me to Trust you. One who loved me even when I was unlovable; choosing to die for my sin. Help me to constantly remember your love for me that took you to the cross. Help me to rest in you knowing that you are an all knowing father”. That became my heart’s prayer.

Even after the right lobe of my liver was taken out, I “surprisingly” did not need a liver transplant.

God is sovereign and I can never doubt that. His timing is always perfect and planned. Once again, I am thankful for the gift of life and pray that through it God’s name will be known and His love for us the human race understood.

 

P.S. The featured image was two weeks before my liver resection surgery and two week after our baby girl was born.

 

37 thoughts on “Cancer journey; possible organ transplant recipient

    1. Thank you Miss Elizabeth πŸ™. I think remembering that our stress or fear over situations cannot do any good and our only option for peace is to trust God’s hand. That lesson I have learned the hardest way over the years. 🌹

  1. Bless you and your family. So glad the surgery went well and you are on the road to recovery. You need strength to be a mother and partner. I believe God has a plan for us all. I carried a card with me that reminded me that Jesus died so I could live…through all my radiation and chemo five years ago. I don’t think I could have gotten to this day without believing in Him. Be happy.

    1. Thank you sisπŸ’. That was me at the worst. At that point I had been to 3 different hospitals, not forgetting the cesarian section I had had 2 weeks prior to take our little Chele out 3 weeks early. Had tons of scans, lots of blood work and a biopsy. That was a mama of a 2 weeks old baby waiting on a major surgery. I was in alot of physical pain.

      1. I can’t even imagine how hard those times were for you! So glad you are on the other side of that battle and you get to watch your little princess grow up!

  2. Whether our walk through this earthly life takes us through good times or bad times God ensures that as long as our hearts and minds are with Him all will turn out as it should – even if that does not always match with what we would wish! πŸ™‚

    I was given new life through a transplant – unfortunately it had to be at the expense of the life of another, someone i never knew. I guess it’s up to me to choose to make that sacrifice a worthwhile one.

    Glad you stayed True your Faith and were rewarded for it. πŸ™‚
    love.

    1. Thank you sir. You are absolutely right. We pray and trust whatever His choosing. Our healing may not be exactly how we would want it but in the end, whatever happens is for His glory. I am amazed at how gracious those that surrender their organs for others to live. Mostly the families of those people. God is indeed great.πŸ™πŸ’ž

  3. Amazing story! I don’t think you should be hard on yourself if you had doubts and fears. Because even though Abraham and Sarah are fabulous examples of faith, they did maniputate the situation by having Abraham hook up with Hagar to produce an heir. And Sarah did have that laughing spell when she heard God’s plans for her to bear a child at her old age. πŸ˜‰

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