Perhaps you have read snippets of me here and there on this blog and wondered why the many poems geared towards abuse. Well, I have lived through many seasons of pain and among them was childhood abuse. It left me broken and honestly saying I was a moving zombie would give you a crystal clear picture of how I felt back then; Empty and alone.
After I got married, I shared the heavy load of pain that I had held this long with my groom. At this point, it was extremely heavy to keep in. This man walked with me, loved me through it and allowed me to slowly take baby steps towards healing.
For me, healing meant learning to understand the depth of my pain, speaking it out, meeting other women that had walked a similar road, and learning to understand what true forgiveness of the ones that hurt me looked like. I will say, combining the word forgiveness and the abuser in one sentence was never an easy thought but I slowly took those baby steps.
I know how deep I am scarred, but I know how sovereign God is. He has freed my heart into forgiving beyond my personal ability.
I specifically went through an abuse recovery class using The Uncaged Project book. It was absolutely amazing. There may be parts humanly speaking that may feel hard to wrap your head around but it’s the truth laid out.
I hope and pray that you are encouraged to take baby steps like I did.