Poetry/Short Stories

Losing mama.


Today I wanted mama

Today I cried for mama

Like I did yesterday.

It’s been a while

It’s been years

It’s been seasons

Feels like I am..

Still losing mama.

Like I did that year,

Today I tried to call mama

At least in my mind

Like I did yesterday.

Today I needed Mama’s voice

Like I did yesterday

And seasons past


Today feels like

I am still losing mama.

By Susan McMillan

A crying heart for a mother’s love

55 thoughts on “Losing mama.

  1. Today is my mothers 4th death anniversary o your words do hit home for me. I just do something in her memory every year. She would have wanted it that way.

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    1. I am sorry for your loss. I think of a mama as a flower patch in our lives. It brightens our days even for a moment. knowing that I was my mama’s baby in itself causes me to smile. It’s enough for me. Hugs today ๐Ÿ’ž

    1. Awwwwwwww. I am so sorry for your loss Herbert. I do understand your pain. I lost my mama at 3 and I still miss her presence in my life. But I do know that I we can find comfort in the one that knows our pain. That is Christ. ๐ŸŒน

  3. I am really sorry for your loss but I m sure wherever she is she must be proud of of you and your elegent style of writing , its the best I have had in WordPress . ๐Ÿ‘

    1. Thank-you very much for such kind words. A touch of kindness from friends like you give me strength to write my heart out on a daily basis. Thank-you again and again.

  4. My momma died in March 2016, the next month, April 2016 my son died. It will be one year tomorrow since my son Jason took up residence in heaven. The rhythm of this post caught me just right today. From one Mama to another, hold onto your sweet memories, with a real HOPE to see our loved ones again.

    1. Barbara I love you even though I am a total stranger. Many, many hugs ๐Ÿ’ž. I can not even begin to imagine your pain. Losing two precious people back to back must be painful. I always like to remember that God knows when we hurt, He understands how low our souls feel in these seasons and He is still sovereign.๐Ÿ’ž๐ŸŒน

    1. Thank-you Jessica โค. I daily trust God’s grace to lead me through those moments when I need Mama’s presence. I know He is able. His love is sufficient and I need to remember that.

  5. It’s difficult beyond reason, but it is the way of life. An excerpt from one of my poems “death’s not dying nor life complete when the ground lies swollen, cold and bleak, it is but promise of life to come and endless days to spend with the Son.” May He bless you and comfort you and give you strength to remember with joy the blessings of her life.

    1. Thank you Marie. Even though I have struggled with the raw pain brought my death, I find comfort in knowing that Christ has conquered death in all it’s chill. I have hope beyond the grave, I believe there’s life beyond these bodies. Thank again Marie for your kindness and words of wisdom. Many hugs today ๐ŸŒน

  6. There is nothing like a mother’s love. In any language the word MOTHER is the most beautiful. I am still blessed with mine but the thought of not having her anyone breaks my heart and brings me to tears. So I am thankful that for now God has still blessed me with having a Mommy.

  7. i envy you.

    my mom wanted me learn on my own. even from the tender age of four she instilled her truth. true, that taught the admirable trait of independence, it also covered me with the overburdening cloak of isolation. unfortunately, isolation shows its hand far too often and independence gets trampled. i wish she would have been the reassuring voice i so desperately needed, that it’s and i am going to be okay; that in the face of adversity, i can still be okay in my own skin; that no matter what state or place i find myself in, i am still worthy.

    here’s to your mama. that hole in your heart represents what she meant to you and all she did for you.

    1. You are worthy. No human beings could take that Worth that you have in Christ from you. You are fearful and wonderfully made in God’s image. I believe those words are true to all of us. Many, many hugs my friend. ๐ŸŒน

      1. at a primal level, i understand my worthiness;sometimes i even feel it. sometimes i feel neutral to the idea of worthiness. at times like now, seemingly facing way too many heavy burdens, it becomes to easy to even push worthiness away. that place sucks.

  8. My mama has been gone for 13 years, and I still miss her physical presence, but she will always live in my heart.

  9. I mourn the mom I never had. Hard to explain to people that when she left 2 years ago(at age 91) I didn’t grieve the way most people do when they lose their mom. But many women have stepped in during my life and mothered me.

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