This Friday, our little girl will be turning 6 and our oldest will turn 8 in April. It’s been beautiful watching our little ones grow year after year. Even though it’s filled with a lot of emotions, I have sought to be as intentional as I can possibly be; I don’t want to miss a moment (yes I am selfish. I want to be in every milestone that my babies make).
It’s been a learning process full of wows along with tears of joy.
Having lost my mama at a very young age, I really never experienced the true beauty in this kind of bond even though I have been blessed with so many beautiful women that have loved me along the way.
Back to my own babies. As a new mama almost 8 years ago, I was determined to enjoy the mother/ child bond that I never experienced.
A mother’s prayer said daily for my children. Surrendering them to the Will of God. Crying my heart out with every fear I have in my heart regarding my babies. When I was little, I wished this sort of prayer; a mother’s prayer to be prayed for me. I am happy that now I can do this for my babies and will continue to do so for as long as I live.
I desired to love my babies and I wanted them to feel it without me having to say it. Of course I still tell them how precious they are a whole lot. I love how this feels and I can tell my babies know it as well. That feeling a child gets from their mama. Knowing that they are precious and unconditionally loved.
For my little boy, I wanted to hold this little hand and daily give him assurance only a mother could give. I still do and I hope to do so for as long as we are both alive.
As for my little girl, I needed her to know that she not only had a mother in me but also a girlfriend. Yes she can try on my shoes, yes she can share my lip balm, yes she can try on any of my dresses, she can have some of Mama’s good smelling lotion and more. All of that is perfectly okay because that’s what Mama’s and daughters do. They share and there’s freedom that exists and I daily enjoy it.
As we raise our children, I desire to let them know that despite the fact that their mama is a sinner like any other human being, that same mama loves them unconditionally. Nothing they can or will ever do to make this mama love them less.
I am thankful to God for having chosen me to be their mama.
I am thankful to God that He allowed this weak body of mine to carry them.
I am thankful to God for giving me health and life to enjoy birthdays for the past years.
I am thankful to God for the years of bottom wiping I have done for my babies in the past.
I am thankful to God for the little tears I have wiped and scrapes I have kissed.
I am thankful to God for the little hands that give me endless hugs.
I am thankful to God for the smelly little morning breathes that run to my bed to kiss me as big as they know how.
I am thankful for my babies, my children and my precious blessings from heaven.
I love you Gary and Michele.