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Dear cancer patient

Dear cancer patient,

I know from my own experience that your shoes are heavy, cold, painful and a lot to bare. Today I am asking you my dearest friend, to Trust!!…Yes trust the fact that God is sovereign, he loves you and He knows exactly what you are going through. He alone understands your pain, your fears and your frustrations.

I may not understand your exact situation, but I definitely know what it feels like to be proclaimed a Cancer patient; I have had to listen to a doctor tell me I have cancer, I have had to listen to him go on about how bad it is, I have walked the cold long hall way that felt so lonely even when the person I love the most in this world (my husband) was right beside me. And yes I was very scared as well. To me the word cancer did sound like a “death sentence”…but it is not. For in Christ we have abundant life even in earthly death.

I understand how it feels to lose hope, to watch the word feel so small but yet big for those out there full of life.

I understand how it feels to be poked so many times in one arm and have tons of blood drawn only to continue being told how bad your cancer numbers look.

I understand how it feels to be stuck in that hospital bed on a floor that is labeled a place of no return.

I understand how it feels signing tons of documents leading to a surgery that doctors have told you may be the end of you on this earth.

I understand how it feels to look in the eyes of the ones you love and see them hurt and cry for you.

I understand stepping into that MRI machine with a chill hoping the images won’t show anything beyond what you can bare.

I know how it feels like to watch yourself in a possibility of having to let go of your one month old baby because in my case, (my new born baby girl was one month old and my baby boy had just turned 2) when I had a liver resection to remove a 22 centimeter tumor…..My doctor never thinking I would make it through, or if I did…A liver transplant would be necessary.

I do understand how it feels to look in the mirror and see a transformed belly or any other part of your body that is graced by a huge scar that reminds you daily of that day!

I know how it feels when you stand in that shower and realize you are losing your beautiful hair; a little piece of you and yes opting to go bald for it is the only choice there’s left in this case. Remember, you are beautiful still because in God’s image we stand daily.

I know how it feels to have a sore scalp, sore mouth with completely no taste (thus not able to enjoy any food).I have been there.

I know how it feels to fall on your face and cry….Cry really hard and that is okay but remember still, God loves you, he knows your pain. And He alone knows the perfect plan for your life. Cry to Him!

Even at the darkest, just like this moment may feel for you, don’t lose faith, please don’t doubt God’s love for you, don’t question the work of His hand in your life. He will take care of you and yes, this may be more than you can take, but we all need to believe still that He promised never to bring to us more than we can bare. Let’s just have Faith my dearest friend.

Cancer patient out there at whatever point; after the news, in the middle of treatment, heading for surgery, fighting as hard as you know how, feeling weak and tired….I love you, I am praying for you today, tomorrow and the next day and the next..

I will not give up on you, hand in hand, heart to heart we will stay strong, believing by faith in God’s sovereignty!

Loved

Susan McMillan

Matthew 6:25-34

Do Not Be Anxious

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

4 thoughts on “Dear cancer patient

  1. This is so beautiful Susan. I’ve read it twice now. I hope you keep sharing your story, because it is so unique and inspiring. Thank you for your transparency in sharing this. ❤

  2. Thank you Jessica!. I always hope and pray that my story will encourage someone out there. Thank you again for your love and kindness. Your posts have been very encouraging as i continue to be schooled with the fact that all of us mamas have similar days.

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